So far out to the sea

Now I understand, how it truly feels to read this sentence: “If I can be absolutely comfortable with not knowing who I am, then what's left in me is who I am – the Being behind the human, a field of pure potentiality other than something that is already defined.”— For somehow, I feel enlightened, when I (finally) (literally) realize and know, nothing that I surely know.  

Zero.  

None.

Zilch.

Does it matter? I don’t think so. Because I don’t (literally) feel that this is a problem.

I think it’s okay.

Besides, what are we beyond our name and form? We belong to the Universe, to the earth; while they do not belong to us. We are just tiny, tiny matters compared to the Universe.

Now I (literally) understand, what this concept actually means: “We are just borrowing the earth from our children, and grandchildren, and great great grandchildren, and so on… and so they have their part too towards their children.. and the circle continues..” It is not because we want them to have the safest place to live in, that is just selfish thought (I think)-- but in fact, this place doesn’t belong to us. Though we belong to this place, but when we die, so is our form (I’m not going to talk about our souls, since I decided not to think about something that I absolutely do not know); and we will die eventually..

I am not thinking about the past

I am not thinking for the future that has not yet come

I am not thinking for short terms

I am not thinking for long terms

I am not thinking what I cannot think

I am not thinking what I do not know

I am thinking beyond, and behind my thoughts.

I am just observing.

I am thinking, to learn, not to raise another question; which I know, I won’t have the answer.

It’s like Zodiacs; to think of it as beyond psychology, beliefs, genetically matters, and history of human kind. Just to grasp the ideas.

Fascinating, really.

Now, wake up.

Dear Engineers,

Engineering education today needs to have several extents in addition to the traditional mathematics and science application skills that have been the foundation. Graduates with engineering background are expected to have not just a formal education, but it is a combination of technical knowledge gained in university courses and also management skills acquired. Through this perspective, leadership traits play a role as the channel. There again, I am talking about how important leadership is.

As environmental engineers, we have to be passionate, committed, and not just about accepting environmental challenges, but finding solutions to achieve the desired outcomes, to take a lead step and make  environmental innovation steps, or act as a pioneer in applying fundamental principles of environmental invention to engineered environmental systems. We have to face responsibilities for environmental management in ourselves, our organization, our community, our country, our living planet.

Environmental management is actually a field that encompasses a surprising array of disciplines, where wide variety of backgrounds is evident in the resumes of people engaged in environmental work. That is why, communication skill is essential. ( I myself, still find this, a bit hard).

As it said: ‘Learning about leadership and developing as a leader from critical life experiences comes from awareness of one’s own identity, personal values, beliefs and passions; leadership is a learning journey’

Unlearn to Learn

The perfection of our every “issue” is beyond our comprehension. The territory behind us and the challenges at hand were precisely crafted to deliver the wisdom and insights that will make possible the life of our dreams. 

Understand what troubles us.

We didn’t come here to face hurdle after hurdle after hurdle. One hundred years from now, it will not matter what our job was, what our degree was, or what kind of car we drove.

We are not our emotions, they are recycled energy.

I am not my emotions.

We are not our thoughts, they are recycled information.

I am not my thoughts.

Pattern of brainwaves create our thoughts, feelings and desires.

I am not living in the mind.

The mind is in me.

I am the mind.

Thoughts DO NOT become things.

So little can yield so much. A new perspective, an admission, a surrender to truth—however painful—changes everything.

Oh, wt*, go for it anyway.

. . . .

I know the day will come

When my sight of this world shall be lost

Life will take its leave in silence

Drawing the last curtain before my eyes

Yet stars will still shine at night

And mornings rise as before

And hours will still heave like sea waves

Casting up pleasures and pains

When I think of this end of my moments

The barrier of the moments breaks

And I see by the light of death

Your world with its careless treasures

Rare is its meanest of lives

Rare is its lowliest eat

Things that I longed for in vain

And things that I got—let them pass

Let me but truly possess

The things that I ever spurned and overlooked

(Rabindranath Tagore, 1913) 

A Paradoxical Perspective

On earth it seems that most people fret, worry, and lose sleep over some of the silliest things they’ve done. But what’s funny is that later on, from here, more often than not, it’s the things they didn’t do that haunt them. I’m not laughing, either.

I think people are stressing out even more not when they do not know what they want or need; it is because they know exactly, and yet still caught up with the illusion of “being safe”.The illusion of safe is guarded by the lists of “maybe”, “sometime”, “I don’t know, and the lists go on and on.

How can you know that something hasn’t worked out, unless you quit?

They say what’s really beautiful is Confidence

They say what’s really powerful is Persistence

Perhaps the most exiting realization in the world finally understands that living the life of your dreams is entirely up to you.  It’s also about the scariest.

It is said that if we can’t choose and control what we want to think, then we are in deep trouble. For the rest of our life . So the strategy here is by putting our thoughts in boxes, differentiating between positive and negative thoughts. But what happens next is by having positive and negative thoughts obviously creating unthinkable thinking arriving extreme ideas. Is there anything in between those two?

It is like when I think I have my own personal ideal concept of something (or someone), does it lead to idealism? Which the arrows will lead to high expectation, then scepticism eventually. How can one thought of positivity leads to negativity?